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[28 Jan 2009|10:48am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

So I'm going through a really hard time right now but I'll get through it, right? I've done it before I can do it again...

In better news, I did my taxes yesterday and that should cover my trip to NJ nicely... I'm happy about that. I was able to get Leia some new clothes so all is good.

I just don't feel like talking right now, sorry.

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[27 Dec 2008|01:42pm]
So I have two new years resolutions this year... I don't think I've ever even had one before... I'm starting a diet, I need to. I don't want to be unhealthy anymore, I have my daughter to think about. I want to be able to run around with her when she gets bigger. I don't really give a shit what anyone else says, I'm doing it for me and for her. NO ONE ELSE!!!

Two, I'm escaping. I'm making plans to be where I should be soon. It's going to hurt a lot and it's going to hurt a lot of people. Again, I'm doing it for me and for her.

That's it... I'm done.
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This is what I want for Giftmas... [21 Dec 2008|01:59pm]
[ mood | horny ]

eric

Someone please get this for me?

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[20 Dec 2008|12:04pm]
[ mood | sick ]

I have a fever. This is not good. I can't remember the last time I had a fever. I have the chills, my eyes are burning and it feels like my head is going to explode. I can't miss work today but I really don't feel good. I still haven't gotten my period, it's been four months. I'm not pregnant, I've taken two tests and, trust me, I know what it feels like to be four months pregnant. I wish I could afford to go to the doctor.

Elliott finally got a job. We celebrated by getting in yet another fight this morning. I don't know how much longer I can put up with this.

I crave sleep and True Blood books. I borrowed the last one Kat had last night and I read it already. Those things are addictive. I guess it's better to live in the world of those books than to be in the real world right now.

I'm going to go lay down before Leia wakes up from her nap. God, I will never forgive myself if I get her sick.

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So things have been... [09 Dec 2008|03:05pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I can't really say how things are with Elliott anymore. Every day it's different. Some days it's okay but most days it's not. I don't even feel anything from him anymore. I think it's over for him but he doesn't want to admit it because he's afraid to lose the baby. That's just what it feels like to me. I'm going out more. I need to, I can't be in the house with him all the time. I'd go crazy. He's so wrapped up in his cell phone it shouldn't matter whether I'm here or not anyway. Good thing is I have someone to talk to these days now that Mike is back... He didn't really go anywhere we just didn't talk. I never knew that he could be such a good friend. Corey is afraid I'm gonna fall for him, I'm not. It's not even about that. I just like being acknowledged. I like feeling like I'm really here. I can't get that at home anymore that's for sure. I don't know what to do... I think I should take the plane ticket offer I got. I don't want things to be over with Elliott but as far as I can tell from him they are. He doesn't act like he cares about me at all anymore, I'm just sort of here. I have to get ready for work now.

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[21 Jun 2008|01:54am]
[ mood | amused ]

A guy hit on me just now on Xbox Live... "Do you like me baby?"
My response? "Yes, I fell in love with you in the five minutes we were playing Halo..."

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[02 May 2008|12:41pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So, it's official.

Leia Bailey Bloom was born April 28, 2008 at 6:29 PM. She weighed 8 pounds 3 ounces and was 19½ inches long. So I'm a Mommie and I swear she is the most beautiful little girl I've ever seen. I'm not just saying that because she's mine either.

Here's the story.

I went to my appointment after the last entry I wrote and saw yet another new doctor. My blood pressure was a little high and he was concerned. He went ahead with my exam and told me that I had NOT dropped as I was previously told and feeling how big she was he felt there was no way she would fit. He told us to go ahead and schedule a c-section for Wednesday. This was when I entered "freaking out mode" and he sent us to the hospital to have another ultrasound just to make sure she was OK. Well, we get there and we run into Dr. Lurch. We told him what was going on and he said "So Dr. Hirsch is trying to steal you from me, I see how it is." We went and had the ultrasound and I was supposed to go to Labor and Delivery for them to monitor her for a little while. We were intercepted by a nurse in the hall and she said "No actually you're coming over here." So I went to the desk and the woman told me that I would have to take my piercings out and start filling out paperwork. I was just like, "Uhm, you need me to do that to check on her?" "Oh, he didn't tell you? Dr. Horst! No sweetie we need to do this to get you ready for surgery." Now I entered "Super freaking out mode" and started the paperwork. It was about 4:30 at that point and by the time I was in the gown getting ready they told me that Dr. Horst wanted me in the OR by 6. Didn't leave me much time for freaking anymore. I had to get and IV and have some blood drawn and pretty much after that I waddled my way into the OR. They had to give me a spinal which is like an epidural but it's a single shot instead of an IV. Apparently they were having some trouble because they had to do it three times. They had given me a local anesthetic first though so I didn't feel anything. Once it was in Dr. Lurch went through his Ipod with me and we settled on Led Zeppelin for during the surgery. He's awesome. My daughter had to know what good music was from the start. They put the curtain up and then Elliott was in the room. Next thing I knew he said the head was out. I swear, I didn't even know they had started! We got a picture of it too, it's lovely heh. So they got her out and brought her to see me, she was blue and screaming but she was beautiful. I was in shock at that point. It didn't seem real, everything up to that point just seemed like a dream or something. They took her away for her bath and Elliott went with her. They closed me up and that was it! I was in the operating room a little more than an hour total and then went to recovery. I felt like hell but then my nurse brought me what she referred to as "Happy Juice" and all was well. Elliott eventually came back with pictures and tears in his eyes. I knew he was gonna cry like a bitch hehe. At about nine they moved me into my room and brought her to me and then I was in love. I barely slept in the hospital mainly because I was in a lot of pain and also because I couldn't keep my eyes off of her. I had her with me in the room almost the whole time I was there and I wouldn't have had it any other way. I don't know how parents can just leave them in that nursery room. I wanted every second with her. I came home yesterday and I feel pretty good. Still in pain but that's to be expected. I have to go have my incision checked on Monday and then she has to meet with her doctor later in the week. I did find out while we were in the hospital that she will have to have surgery to remove her cyst. It's just too big. I'm so scared about that. I'm sure everything will be fine though. That's about it though. I'm tired. Leia and I took a nap earlier but it's time for another one for us both. She has a head start on me though, she's been sleeping the entire time I wrote this heh. Oh well, I have to get sleep when can. I'll have some pictures soon I just need to take the memory card to CVS and get a disk made.

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Swedish Meatballs and Metalheads... [19 Feb 2006|12:19pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

I don't know what I'm doing. Really, why can't I just be satisfied with what is?

I have to work in South Beach again. I don't want to, it was so boring there last week. At least I'm getting some time in another shop though. I think that is good for me. I just like my shop so much more. Especially when I just work alone with people. I get along really well with them and I feel so much more at ease there. Oh well...

I'm just cranky... I need time for myself and at least now I have a little more of that than I did before.

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I'm so sick of hearing people scream at eachother... [09 Feb 2006|10:38pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

So tomorrow is the day. I don't know how I feel about this other than I just want it over. Only one thing that could effect this in any major sort of a way but there is nothing I can do about it at this point.

Two weeks left until Matt gets here. I know EXACTLY how I feel about that. I'm so nervous... I'm more nervous about his arrival than what I have to do tomorrow.

I think I'm going to try and smoke a cigarette and get in bed... Early day tomorrow.

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Bleh... [05 Feb 2006|11:01am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Yesterday kicked my ass at work... I don't know what more to talk about. Nothing interesting in my life... Matt will be here in a little more than two weeks and I don't really know how I feel about anymore. My stepmothers voice makes me angry. I hate being at my house and I need to move out ASAP. Bleh... This update is useless.

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This entry is choppy as fuck, deal with it. [12 Jan 2006|11:33pm]
[ mood | scattered ]

I never realized what a metalhead I truly am until recently. I don't know why this is so shocking to me but it is. I don't have much to update on... I was sick as fuck on christmas and the week after. I almost got fired for that too... My father got married. My stepsister is cool but not. I have Bettie Page bangs now. I should be starting my half sleeve soon. I should be getting my horizontal brow in the anti-brow region piercings soon... That last sentence makes no sense but I can't figure out how to make it so fuck off. My ears are at a 6g now and my second holes will be at 10g next week... Matt is coming to Florida at the end of next month and we're going to see Trivium in Orlando *gasm*... Tyler went to jail and the first thing he could think of to do was come to the shop and see me. I wanted to hit him... With a sledgehammer... I'm over it though. I miss my sister and Gen a lot... I want to go up north for a while but I can't, especially if I want to go to the APP Piercing Convention in Vegas. I must go to that convention, and be around some normal people. Brokeback mountain makes me cry like a lil bitch and I love it. I'm still working on the moving out thing but I would rather try and save up for the convention first. My dad's lease isn't up until August anyway so it's not like I have to hurry. That's about it.

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Yeah... [19 Dec 2005|12:35am]
[ mood | lethargic ]

Just got back from the christmas party for work... I had fun but it would have been soooo much better if Denice had pushed Rita in the pool. We left kinda early then went to hang out at Miami Ink... All I can say is Ami is a lot shorter in person than he seems... They seemed like nice guys though. The shop was a lot smaller than on TV too. I met Troy Lane as well, don't really have an impression because I didn't talk much but that's how I am. Oh well.

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I'm way behind on the quotes but wait until tuesday, I've got a bunch of them...

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Why [14 Dec 2005|10:44pm]
[ mood | confused ]

am I even contemplating going to The Morgue? I loathe that place... Can it be that I have reached that level of boredom?

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Tattoo Shop Quote of the Day
Alice: "It was a nice extension ladder, aluminium... And the first thing that came to mind was 'Alligator?'"

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Blarg... [13 Dec 2005|06:34pm]
[ mood | curious ]

I need to find a roommate... Soonish... I don't know what I'm gonna do.

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Tattoo Shop Quote of the Day
Jeff: "I think I have a little ADD... I have a little bit of everything. I'm like a buffet of abbreviations."

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I'm tired... [12 Dec 2005|11:58pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Jeff is one of the most interesting people to talk to... Not to mention the coolest boss ever.

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Tattoo Shop Quote of the Day
Jeff: "Music controls you..."

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I don't care what you say... [11 Dec 2005|02:34pm]
[ mood | headachey ]

Sing is one of the best movies ever... Don't agree with me then fuck off...

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I'm very Angry... [11 Dec 2005|12:37pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I need to stop watching the "Paradise Lost" DVDs... They do nothing but piss me off... I can't believe they're still in jail. Hopefully soon they'll be out. If you have no idea what I'm talking about go to www.wm3.org and I'm sure you'll be just as pissed off as I am.

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Tattoo Shop Quote of the Day
Lenny: "I'm killing pimps, this is great!"

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Question... [07 Dec 2005|01:19am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Does Hedwig and the Angry Inch make anyone else cry?

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I hope I'm not alone in that one... I'm going to bed.

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... [06 Dec 2005|12:29am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Okay so at my job we have a pepsi machine that is made to look like it has condensation on it... Keep this in mind... Jeff was in a really silly mood... After watching him use a little hand mirror to spy on customers around the corner and making little antennas out of pipe cleaners for his hat this is what I hear... "Jessi, the soda machine is wet, can you dry it off?" Then somewhere he found a little yellow flag and was walking back and forth in the shop swinging it around like a little kid. Days like this make me love my job.

In other, mildly important, news... I'm over Tyler. Now I'm just lonely as fuck again and thanks to Corey (and I know this was not intentional on her part so I don't hold it against her whatsoever) I miss Ricky... I can't believe after seven fucking years that guy still has a hold on me. She made a valid point last night though. "He's too crazy, even for you." I just don't like being this way... I'm getting bitter. I'm also getting meaner by the day. I'm really starting to not care anymore. Oh well...

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Peeeeeeeeectures! [05 Dec 2005|02:25am]
[ mood | weird ]

Kat is amazing...
I look so innocent in a lot of these...Collapse )

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